8.23.2015

[she is 39 weeks pregnant]


How far along: 39 weeks
Size: Small ripe watermelon
Symptoms: Very achy and tired. Pressure everywhere. And now I'm swelling. I can't wear my wedding ring anymore and I just feel puffy and waterlogged in general all the time. Definitely the most I've ever weighed as well.
Prepping for baby: Still trying to gather my anxious mind. Josh has scheduled a lot of a last minute work around the house so the chaos here isn't helping. I know that it will all get done and be so pretty when it's done. I waited to order a few of her non-urgent things because her stroller was on backorder and I wanted the reward points from Nordstrom. So in the waiting, I actually found another stroller in my late night researching that I love more. But since its estimated delivery is too close to when we will be in the hospital, I will just order the rest of her stuff once we get safely home rather than risk boxes sitting on my porch. Our bags are packed for the hospital. Please keep us in your prayers for a safe delivery and healthy baby/momma.


Sleep: Still hard to sleep. Even harder because I get caught up enjoying her late night wiggling. Sleeping on my right side also makes my hips hurt like crazy so I'm mainly on the left most of the night and wake up with crazy sheet indentations on my skin.
Movement: Her movements are pretty pronounced to anyone who looks at my belly and if she finds a cozy spot on one side, I'm completely and noticeably lopsided. I am truly going to miss how incredible the movement is.
Changes from last week: The swelling is the biggest part. I found the very first piece of jewelry that Josh ever bought me; a little silver and brass "H" ring when we were dating that we fondly called my promise ring. It was a size too large but the only one in the store and I loved it. I had even told him that we didn't need an engagement ring and I would proudly wear this one forever (well, he got a beast of an engagement ring anyway but I really would have worn this one forever). Who could have known that God saw I would need this ring again in the future; that I would need it at the very end of carrying our sweet little girl. I absolutely hate being ringless and this little sentimental ring of metal has fixed that problem completely.
Best moment of the week: Final date weekend. Josh and I have been together for over six years (married for almost five of them). That's a lot of time to know, grow, and love each other. I am so glad that we had all those years to ourselves and were able to plan this next chapter of our lives. Word on the street is our lives will be forever changed and we vowed to never lose our roots this weekend. I can only imagine how easy it is to get caught up in our new life of baby priorities but our most loving mentors always advise: God first, marriage second, children third. And not in the sense that you abandon your child for each other but that you love your children so much that if you don't work hard at your marriage, your children cannot thrive like they would in a house built on love. Marriage, like children, isn't easy. But with hard work and commitment they both will bear the most rewarding fruits of this incredible life.


Looking forward to: God breathing sweet life into my baby with the miraculous sound of her first cry. Holding her close, locking eyes with her, and being able to say "I love you" with a power I've never experienced before. Seeing Josh's eyes well up with grateful and joyful tears as he gets to hold his precious daughter for the first time. Getting to know this incredible life God has made - from how she eats and sleeps to how she reacts to everything around her. Watching her grow into the incredible woman I know she will be and being able to share my testimony of God's love with her as she forms her own walk with Him. There's so many things to look forward to, I cannot even put it into words without absolutely bursting into tears like I am now. My heart is full. And my heart has never been more thankful. (And of course, rinse, repeat...) Still every single moment left of this pregnancy. I cherish every ache and discomfort because I realize how fast this chapter has gone and I can't wait to hold my sweet love in my arms but I sure have enjoyed carrying her. 


Scripture for the week: God makes His people strong, God gives His people peace. - Psalm 29:11 ---- Worrying can cause straightforward things to be blown out of proportion (my "chaotic" house combined with my impending labor, for example). God is telling me to keep it simple. He has all the strength I need and all the peace necessary for this time. I need to banish fear and unbelief. I need to eradicate negativity. He has made me capable and given me His composure; peace that surpasses all understanding. I need to rest in His promises...  Father, I strip away the complicated and get back to the basics. You have made me strong and given me peace. I take that into the labor and delivery of my baby and into my home. In Your Most Holy Name, Amen.

He can't believe this is the last sign either!

8.16.2015

[she is 38 weeks pregnant]


How far along: 38 weeks
Size: Pumpkin
Symptoms: All over aches (primarily my hips), GI stuff, sleepy, sleepy, sleepy...
Prepping for baby: I've been crazy emotional this week. It's really hitting me hard that she's not going to be squirming in my belly soon and I have shed a lot of tears over it. The other day I realized that she would soon be sleeping in a crib and not safe in my belly and TEARS. This has been such a wonderful experience. Not because I didn't have a rough pregnancy, because if I chose to live in negativity, I really did have some hard things to get through too. I simply choose thankfulness instead and have absolutely enjoyed carrying her.
Sleep: It's really hard to sleep. My mind races and my hips ache. So I lie awake online window shopping. Which honestly, I should probably read some good parenting books or better yet talk to God. My emotions and mind are all over the place this week and I'm working hard to reel it in. I know I need to sleep now when I can, but it is definitely easier said than done for me. Keep in mind I've only been able to take three naps this WHOLE time.
Movement: Still my wiggly girl. Movement has been my very favorite part of this experience. Feeling her little feet shuffle around and her head push against my ribs and stomach has been such a wildly fun experience.
Changes from last week: Officially feeling like there is a pumpkin in there. My stomach is so tight and I waddle like a penguin. Although I can't nap, I've essentially chilled out on activity for myself. I haven't been doing my walks or really going anywhere. I'm trying to just be still and enjoy the remaining time.
Best moment of the week: My brother and his girlfriend came to visit last weekend. I REALLY missed seeing him so it was great to have a few days to hang out. We mainly just ate a lot of food (thanks so much, Sherie for your cooking skills and cleaning help!) but I definitely enjoyed every delectable calorie. He gave me some great advice and shared some funny stories from when he became a dad. I love soaking in time with all these people I have tucked so deep in my heart.
Looking forward to: (rinse, repeat) Still every single moment. I cherish every ache and discomfort because I realize how fast this chapter has gone and I can't wait to hold my sweet love in my arms but I sure have enjoyed carrying her. 
Scripture for the week: Fear not for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. - Isaiah 43:1  --- Oh fear. It's so real yet so unnecessary. I cannot tell you how many people have tried to cast their anxieties over me and how hard it is to not let those seeds grow in my heart. But God is greater than fear. I have to remind myself that although the unknown is hard for me to wrap my head around, He knows the future and that is more than enough to remain brave and faithful.



8.09.2015

[she is 37 weeks pregnant]


How far along: 37 weeks
Size: Winter Melon
Symptoms: Lots of round ligament pain. She's growing and I am running out of space. Very very tired often.
Prepping for baby: Now we are preparing through prayer. I think we have the basics physical needs in place. So now it's mentally preparing for the new chapter!
Sleep: Finding the right position is the key to falling asleep. And often once I find it, I have to use the bathroom. It's not horrible but it's definitely harder each night to find that right spot. So thankful for all the pregnancy pillows because I'm pretty sure it would be a nightmare trying to figure it out without these things now.
Movement: I was told by my doctor that the head in the ribs is worse than the feet in the ribs. It is definitely an experience to feel a head pressing hard against your rib cage. I am soaking it all in though. I have loved every wiggle, kick, hiccup, and turn this sweet girl has done.
Changes from last week: I'm still getting bigger. Still no stretch marks which is a serious miracle considering how huge my stomach is now. My legs get red if I'm on them too long... no swelling, just color changes.
Best moment of the week: Getting our tentative birth date for little one. It made me extremely anxious and excited. I cannot believe that there will be a little baby in our arms in 2 weeks. My heart is full. Knowing that we made it to 37 weeks was a big milestone. Pregnancy can instill so many fears and worries in your heart and there are some milestones that feel like you dropped a ton of bricks. While I focused hard to give my fears to God, the frail human in me still struggles to release at times.  My cat has been super cuddly this past week. He definitely knows that something is about to change. But I love how affectionate he is right now. Josh and I also have had a lot of fun talking to our little baby while she's still cooking and just enjoying each other's company while we wait on her.
Looking forward to: (repeat from last week) Still every single moment. I cherish every ache and discomfort because I realize how fast this chapter has gone and I can't wait to hold my sweet love in my arms but I sure have enjoyed carrying her. 
Scripture for the week: So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. - 2 Corinthians 4:18



8.02.2015

[she is 36 weeks pregnant]


How far along: 36 weeks
Size: Head of romaine lettuce
Symptoms: Waddling. More round ligament pain depending on position. SO tired again. Back pain, hip pain, feet pain - all completely worth it.
Prepping for baby: Car seat bases are in the vehicles (we finally did it)!  Her crib and monitors are fully set up. Her clothes are washed. Swaddles are in her basket. It's getting closer and we are so excited.
Sleep: Positioning is still tricky. My body fully wakes at 5am no matter what time I fell asleep. Getting out of bed is quite a fun scene too!
Movement: She's still my little squirmer. I am still getting teary thinking that these are the final weeks I get to feel her life inside of me. I'm cherishing every single second of being able to truly "hug" every bit of her.
Changes from last week: I'm huge. My feet don't really swell but my legs and feet do get redder when I'm up on them for any length of time. My skin is crazier. Pregnancy did a lot of things to my skin like rashes, tags, mole changes, weird red things on my hands that the dermatologist said will go away. One mole got so out of hand I had it removed this week.
Best moment of the week: Date nights with Josh. Dinners, movies, ice cream dates... We did a few of them this week. I may have been uncomfortable at the movies but I really enjoyed having us time. We had a lot of tests at our routine appointment today and they looked great. I am so thankful that everything is checking out so well. I'm just a ball of emotions - happy, anxious, nervous, loving, excited, etc. It feels like life is beginning, not just for her but for me too!
Looking forward to: Still every single moment. I cherish every ache and discomfort because I realize how fast this chapter has gone and I can't wait to hold my sweet love in my arms but I sure have enjoyed carrying her. 
Scripture for the week: I give thanks to you, O Lord my God, with all my heart; and I will glorify Your name forever. - Psalm 86:12  --  My heart is so full. This beautiful chapter is a gift from Him alone and I am forever grateful. I remember this time last year crying on my closet floor thinking I would never be able to conceive, we had tried so long. I handed my desire to Him and told Him I trusted in His plan - even if it meant I couldn't ever have a child - and here I am feeling this sweet miracle kicking me and hearing her heart beat each week at the doctor; knowing that in a few weeks I will get to hold her, lock eyes with her, and show her with each breath how much I love her. Oh how I give thanks to Him. And oh how I will glorify Him forever.

In the beginning of my documentations, I had to bait him to go by the sign. Now he goes on his own and it's really cute.

7.26.2015

[she is 35 weeks pregnant]


How far along: 35 weeks
Size: Coconut
Symptoms: Lots of round ligament discomfort. Especially if I have been in one position too long. Ouch! I'm also still super tired as you can see in the pic above.
Prepping for baby: She's getting ready and I think we are as ready as you can be... well, minus the car seat. We really need to get those bases in the cars. And I should probably go ahead and actually set up her monitor and put the crib sheet on. Doing anything really wipes me out, so I joke that nesting for me has been online shopping. Melt my debit card, please.
Sleep: Sleep is still difficult. Positioning is tricky and the closer we get, the harder it is to turn my mind off to actually sleep.
Movement: She's a little wiggle worm and I love feeling her pedal her little feet. It's not like a kick, it's more of her just rocking her little feet around. And her little head moving from one side to the other is a trip. I will admit I actually have cried over the fact that my time feeling this little miracle inside will soon come to a close. I'm tearing up writing about it even. It's just been so magical harboring this precious girl and feeling her grow stronger and bigger each day.
Changes from last week: Waddling has intensified. And it takes forever and a day for me to get anything done, even to take a shower. I used to take three minute showers. Now it takes me like ten solid minutes to even get dry. I only wash my hair 2-3 times a week so I can't imagine if I did that daily too.
Best moment of the week: Maternity pictures! It was so blessed hot outside and I don't know how we all survived it but a sweet friend took some incredible pictures of us at this lovely park and they turned out beautifully. So grateful that she took the time to capture this special chapter for us.



That's all for now - I want to save some for another post too!
Looking forward to: Every single moment. Appointments are now weekly. Everything looked great at our 35 week appointment (1cm dilated - ahhh, things are happening!) and next week we will do more blood work, an ultrasound, and another lovely pelvic check (eeeks on those!). Prayers for her and me to continue to grow strong and healthy and to hang on for a few more weeks, please!
Scripture for the week: From His fullness, we all have received grace upon grace. - John 1:16  --  Oh how we have. His grace brings me to my knees. Thank you Lord for this incredible life.

Everyone can stop telling me that he will be ignored when baby is here. Y'all don't even know the depth this cat is in my heart. :)

7.19.2015

[she is 34 weeks pregnant]


How far along: 34 weeks
Size: Cannonball Butternut Squash
Symptoms: Super tired, pressure everywhere, and generalized discomfort in every position. Oh and insane happiness. Yes, you can be crazy happy when your body wants to be miserable.
Prepping for baby: I washed most of her newborn clothes and socks. We still haven't messed with her car seat but will try this weekend! Really, I'm trying to rest and get things done around the house.
Stretch marks: Nada.
Sleep: I've officially reached, "you're tired but no position works." Once I fall asleep, I sleep hard though. Until I need to use the bathroom...
Movement: Lots of tight squirms. It throws me off when she stretches - due to her increasing lack of space, things tighten, pain shoots around - it's a new sensation but still pretty awesome.
Cravings: Fruit, guacamole, and cookies.
Changes from last week: If I drop something, it now stays on the floor if I don't immediately need it.  Sorry if you come visit and my floor is covered in random things. I'm embracing letting go of having a clean house.
Best moment of the week: Josh and I finally had a getaway. I have been so scared to travel this whole pregnancy. For one, I don't like planes anyway (they make me sick) so flying somewhere awesome was sadly not happening. Second, sitting in a car for lengths at a time just weren't comfortable. I have to use the bathroom often and how she sits puts a lot of pressure on several nerves if I can't move around every hour. Josh and I really craved a little time out of the area and this weekend was the big 25th anniversary of my momma's death, so we drove to Tulsa for the weekend to recharge and reconnect. We walked around the mall, ate Cheesecake Factory, laughed in our hotel room, and just enjoyed each other's company. It was so nice to have that time. At the mall he noticed my feet hurt and I was waddling pretty hard. He saw a stand of Birkenstocks and had me pick a pair out to wear the rest of the day (and forever because they are too comfortable to wear anything else now). I love how he pays attention to details like that. I also finally got my hair cut. It had been about 6 months so I don't have crazy witch-ends anymore!

Josh captured this shot in our hotel room
Looking forward to: Laying down tonight! I've been running around with my head cut off today. I really can't wait to relax! We also have maternity pictures Friday. One of my friends takes beautiful family pictures so I'm so grateful that she and another bestie friend are setting aside some time Friday evening to take some shots of this incredible chapter of our lives.
Scripture for the week: And I am sure of this, He who began a good work in you will bring it to completion. - Philippians 1:6  -- We are in the final 4 weeks of this incredible journey. All around there are so many things to fear or doubt. Social media has allowed access to stories of pain and suffering as much as there are stories of joy. There is so much unknown in life. But what I know for sure is that He is at the captain's wheel of this ship and no matter what, I trust in His plan. He has always looked after me and I find comfort that He will do the same for my little girl.


7.12.2015

[she is 33 weeks pregnant]


How far along: 33 weeks
Size: Honeydew Melon
Symptoms: Tired... all the time. I'm in a perpetual state of zoning out. It's ok to laugh at this because I certainly do.
Prepping for baby: Thanks to Amazon Prime day and the Nordstrom Anniversary Sale, I have loaded up on all kinds of goodies for her. I probably did not need most of it, but it was such a good deal and well, you can't pass that up (or at least I can't)...
Stretch marks: I looked and I'm still in the clear.
Sleep: Sleep got weirder this week. I guess my body is preparing for late night feedings. I completely  wake up around 2:30-3am and don't fall back asleep until around 5am. And then I'm wide awake 2 hours later. It's so strange. This is why I'm now a zombie. ;)
Movement: She's moving and wiggling around. She keeps her head close to my heart for the most part and I feel her little limbs everywhere.
Cravings: A sprinkle donut. But I haven't caved. Blood sugars are awesome and she told me I can cut down to checking my sugar to a few times a week. I'm still madly in love with peaches. I eat them daily.
Changes from last week: We keep getting bigger. And the sleep shift is new.
Best moment of the week: I posted late because we had another growth ultrasound scan on Thursday. It's so magical seeing her on the screen, opening her mouth, her tiny hands on her face, her cute feet everywhere (even up by her head), shadows of her hair whisping in the fluid. She had her hands all over her face for the 4D images but we were able to see her precious face. Josh said she has my nose and lips. We both teared up. Miracles are real and the Lord is just blowing us away already. She's also measuring to my exact due date and her fluid levels are perfect. I may look small to everyone from the outside, but she's measuring right on point and is approx. 4lbs 9oz. Praise to God for the gestational diabetes not affecting her adversely.
Looking forward to: Beside the due date where we get to finally meet her, I'm cherishing every moment Josh and I share. It's not long until we are an official party of three. We worked really hard on our marriage and are closer than ever. I don't know where I would be without his awesome support during this whole process. He's been so involved and I am so grateful.
Scripture for the week: Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. - Philippians 4:8  ---  Focusing on the positives is something I've really had to train my brain to do. It's too easy to get caught up in negativity or fear. There is too much goodness to waste time on things that aren't real. God has surely blessed us and I choose to find Him in every situation. He is good all the time and all the time, He is good.


7.05.2015

[she is 32 weeks pregnant]





How far along: 32 weeks
Size: Bok choy (not sure how they come up with these as different sites say different foods)
Symptoms: Tired. More stretching and pulling feelings. Nerve pains from her position at times.
Prepping for baby: We are just soaking up all the moments right now together. I will admit anxiety creeps up on me when I realize that we are in the home stretch but relying on faith and taking each moment as it comes helps tremendously. We also had to "move" our cat. Since we bought our house, his litter box and food setup have been in our master bathroom. We both agreed that since little O will be in our room for a while, we should probably set up Sabre's shop somewhere else. So we moved his box to our upstairs guest bathroom and his food to the formal dining room. He's having a hard time adjusting (loud meowing at our faces) but so far but we haven't had any stinky rebellion... fingers crossed we gave him enough time to adjust to that before the shock of baby.
Stretch marks: I haven't really looked because it's hard to see the underside of my stomach now but I don't think there are any!
Sleep: I'm having a hard time falling asleep from time to time and I get up once or twice a night to use the bathroom but it isn't that bad. Josh wakes up super early sometimes and plays with her which wakes me up but I don't mind at all.
Movement: Definitely feeling little limbs above my belly button regularly now. No actual rib kicks but I feel her stretching up. She sometimes gets on one side and makes my stomach lopsided which is fun to see. I still have no idea what direction her head is in but I love watching and feeling her little parts slide around under there!
Cravings: I still want cake and donuts. Ha! My blood sugars have been pretty much perfect and I'm still curbing sweet cravings with fruit. We met with the diabetic educator and she gave me some tips and options to help me feel less confined in my eating choices. She also feels pretty confident that I shouldn't have issue with becoming a full-time diabetic post delivery. Praying praying praying!
Changes from last week: We're bigger. I noticed my feet swelling on the 4th of July. I had been outside quite a bit that day. They weren't huge but definitely chubby. A few hours of putting them up helped but that's the first time I saw swelling.
Best moment of the week: We spent time with good friends this weekend for the holiday. It was nice to just relax with them and enjoy some laughs.

(photo credit)
Looking forward to: Every little wiggle and squirm. Also, possibly (finally) playing with our carseat. Yes, it is still in the box in front of my desk. It's not hard as we have played with it in the store so it's not like we need to dedicate a weekend to it but I know we should probably get the bases in the cars within the next few weeks. :)
Scripture for the week: In your anger do not sin. Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold. - Ephesians 4:26-27  --  Real talk, last week my feelings were truly hurting. Pregnancy hormones definitely do not help overcome hurt feelings either. Several times I was tempted to act just as rude or awful as I felt but I knew that would have done nothing but spread poison onto those around me. There's about a million cliche quotes that capture how awful anger is but the Bible nails "do not give the devil a foothold." I said last week that it is my job as a mother to be an example. And while feelings may get hurt, it does not justify being nasty and causing worse damage thus falling further from His grace. It is a calling to rise above and mend the hurt with grace and kindness. While this calling does not equal being a doormat to poor treatment, it also means dealing with disappointment in grace, not in sin. I'm still learning to overcome my selfish emotions but there has never been a more important time to make conscious efforts to change bad habits I don't want my little love to see or replicate. Love and kindness always win. Rinse, repeat.

Love this little (now grumpy) fella. 

6.28.2015

[she is 31 weeks pregnant]


How far along: 31 weeks
Size: Pineapple
Symptoms: More stretching from growing. I still get tired and dizzy at times but overall pretty great.
Prepping for baby: We set up her area in our bedroom. I didn't want to put her sheets on yet (to avoid collecting dust - they are sitting in her crib) but we are pretty pleased with how it turned out. Putting together her crib wasn't as awful as people say and ours was from Norway so literally just two pages of pictures, no words.


We woke up this morning thinking, "Did we grow up? There's baby stuff in our room!"

I gave her my makeup vanity as her diaper changing station - Josh got me the vanity when we started dating and it's always been so special to me.

The two stars represent Josh's late father and my late mother. We know they've been looking after her all this time and will continue to for her whole life. :)
Prep for baby cont.: We got so many things at our shower - it was incredible (more on the shower below) but we do have a few more things to get. But honestly we have all the basics and are really excited for this new chapter.
Sleep: Still sleeping good. Fingers crossed this hangs on. Some mornings I will wake up too early but overall, I cannot complain.
Movement: I have finally felt a few movements above my navel. Which means she's finally rolling around a little more in there. I joked with my doctor about her being stuck in my pelvis since all my movements were so incredibly low. Most movements are still really low but I have felt some higher movements now!
Cravings: I really really really want some cake. We cancelled my cake for the shower while we work on sugar control (which actually all my sugars have been in range - even though I haven't seen the diabetic educator yet - yay for RN school, right?). And my best friend had a birthday and I couldn't partake in the treats again. But fruit helps curb that annoying craving.
Changes from last week: I'm bigger. Higher movement. There's baby stuff in our room. Our routine appointment this week went really well.  All good stuff.
Best moment of the week: Hands down the baby shower. You really see people's true character on days that mean the most to you - both good and bad. My friends who put the shower together really put their heart into it and that love is not lost on me. I am SO appreciative of their hard work and attention to detail. They even pitched a bunch of money together and pretty much cleaned out the rest of my Target registry. Unbelievable. So to Brittanee, Alicia, Amber, and my mother-in-law - thank YOU beyond any words I can express. Little O will be so lucky to have angels in her life like you.


And to all the women who took time out of their busy lives to shower my little skittle with love, thank you. It meant the world to see your smiles and share laughs with you. To my friends who had prior obligations or emergencies, I completely understand, don't worry, I can't wait to meet up soon! And to those who just didn't care, I appreciate you weeding yourselves out of our lives. I don't need people around my daughter that don't have integrity. As hurt and disappointed as I have been by some, I know that God is at work showing me who I need to value and who I need to let go of. It is not an easy process but it's not about me anymore. It's about being an example to my child of the treatment we deserve by others. This past year I've really tried to focus on connecting with many friends and simply put, those that did not reciprocate, I have to let go of. It's been the same few people who consistently blow off important dates and I've had enough. These women below have been an incredible example of selfless love and kindness for years and my eyes are even more open to just how incredible each one is (several women are missing due to conflicts in schedule but the same sentiment applies)


Looking forward to: We have an ultrasound coming up! I still have to organize a lot of her things. But I'm trying to soak up these last couple months of this incredible miracle inside me.
Scripture for the week: I am like an olive tree, thriving in the house of God. I will always trust in God's unfailing love. - Psalm 52:8 [and] Consider it pure joy whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. - James 1:2-3

Well well well, sweet Sabre came today ;)

6.21.2015

[she is 30 weeks pregnant]


How far along: 30 weeks
Size: Cabbage
Symptoms: I'll be honest, this last week was tough. I really haven't felt well. The fatigue was intense, dizziness, weakness; It just hit a peak. I had failed my 1-hour glucose so at the end of last week I took the 3-hour glucose tolerance test. AND failed. Which I could tell I was failing as I took it because I felt TERRIBLE. We followed up with the doc and she explained (because as an RN you kind of forget how to be a patient) what was going on and that's why I haven't been feeling so hot. Being tired in pregnancy is expected but feeling like this was not. So it was nice to have an explanation for how down I had been feeling the last month. Basically we will watch her growth more carefully as she's more susceptible to being chubbier thanks to my inability to metabolize glucose efficiently now. I'm also not truly anemic as previously called. Just on the low side of normal so she said we will keep watch on my labs. Not the best week of doctor's reports but there are definitely worse things that can happen so I'm grateful for that. We also had a good laugh about how everything was smooth sailing and my doctor goes on vacation and everything went into chaos.
Prepping for baby: We finally ordered her crib! I have a soft spot in my heart for European baby companies. Their design and function is right up our alley. Her crib actually starts as a bassinet and you add and take away pieces until it becomes a junior size bed. It even converts to sleek chairs after that. Well worth the investment in our opinion.

(Hers will be in white)
Stretch marks: I'm pretty amazed by the fact that there isn't one.
Sleep: Slept like a rock the past couple of nights. Can't complain about that. :)
Movement: She is still more active at night and she still has more active days than others. And it is still the best thing in the world.
Cravings: No more sweets but it is all I want. I try to nip the cravings in the bud with some fruit but really I want cake/cookies/etc. I'm also craving avocados. The diabetic educator is supposed to get in touch soon so that I can get a real game plan going. We are trying to manage with diet before we go to medicine and I'm anxious to get this ball rolling.
Changes from last week: Aside from an answer to why I have been feeling so down, I'm definitely bigger.
Best moment of the week: We took our newborn/breastfeeding marathon class. Yes, spending an entire Saturday in class is not ideal but we enjoyed the information and it got us really excited about this new chapter. And it was Father's Day. Another holiday that I would typically have all kinds of negative emotions towards. However, this year I have a precious little girl growing in me and an incredible husband that loves us with all his life. Father's Day now has such an important place in my heart; I know that my little girl will have the most doting and loving father a girl could want. And to me, that means more than I could ever write.
Looking forward to: Baby shower this weekend! My best friend planned on getting my dream cake but due to the gestational diabetes, we are opting for something different. We fully plan on having cake once the little one is here safe though!
Scripture for the week: For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. - Jeremiah 29:11 and You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. - Jeremiah 29:13 -- Nothing rocks my faith boat like feeling sick or abnormal medical results. Because my mother died so young, I get scared, I go to a place of fear and doubt. Ultimately, my faith in His plan gets tested. In my bible study this week, a girl compared God's great plan to a beautiful tapestry. On one side, the tapestry is a hot mess of threads that make no sense and look awful but on the other side is a beautiful and great masterpiece. What a perfect depiction of life; so often all we see are the tangled threads that make no sense but really God is working a masterpiece that is beyond our comprehension of beauty and magnificence. When I continually seek Him and keep my faith-focus on Him alone, the hot mess fades and the beauty comes to focus. It was not easy to wrap my otherwise pretty healthy life around the word "gestational diabetes" but when I know that He has purpose for all things, including diabetes, my fear fades and my hope is restored.

Sabre is on a nap break this week

6.14.2015

[she is 29 weeks pregnant]


How far along: 29 weeks
Size: Acorn Squash
Symptoms: Waves of the heavy exhaustion are back this week. Otherwise, pretty much the same as last week. My blood work came back showing I am anemic so that explains why I'm so whipped. Iron supplements for me!
Prepping for baby: We still haven't played with the car seat in our own cars. It was such a busy week but we will get to that soon. We have a Newborn Marathon class this Saturday. Eight hours in a classroom on a Saturday morning doesn't sound like fun but Josh and I are ready to get it behind us. I may have ordered her the CUTEST ballet slippers. I get that she won't be walking for another year but she can have them on her adorable feet eventually.
Stretch marks: Still holding tight, although she grew a LOT this week it feels like.
Sleep: Struggling for comfort is more noticeable. Especially just sitting on the couch feels off now. Sleep hasn't been the best this week but mainly from my mind racing.
Movement: Still moving and moving low. I asked the doctor about it (because I've felt maybe two kicks above my navel) and she said it's totally normal. Baby is doing great! Some babies just make their stomping grounds high and some low.
Cravings: Fruit still and sweets are still a constant want. I was in the middle of a rice Krispy treat when they called to tell me I barely failed the one hour test. So onto the three hour test at the end of this week. And no more sweets/carbs until then. :(
Changes from last week: This belly is bigger and I hate my couch now. Ha!
Best moment of the week: The full cry I broke into during worship at church. Hormones + Jesus = hot mess Janice. Luckily everyone else was feeling it too so I was able to get some tears under control before the lights hit back on again. We were singing It Is Well (Kristene DiMarco & Bethel Music) and it went straight to the feels. It is so well with my soul. I may get uncomfortable or not be able to do what I used to but His unending love and grace is worth more than anything.
Looking forward to: Lights out tonight. Lol. I'm really sleepy today.
Scripture for the week: I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in His Word I put my hope. - Psalm 130:5
Such a welcomed rainy week :)

6.07.2015

[she is 28 weeks pregnant]

Click for details: Dress, Necklace (personalized w/our baby's name)Earrings, Flower Crown (made by me) 
How far along: 28 weeks - THIRD TRIMESTER!
Size: Large eggplant
Symptoms: Lots of stretching/growing pains. Still having indigestion, random waves of exhaustion, intermittent nausea, and the occasional headache. Not sure if it's true Braxton Hicks contractions or just her movement but every once in random while, this basketball gets real tight (not painful) for a little bit.
Prepping for baby: Her car seat delivered! I have also started organizing her clothes by size, her bows by color, and various other inventory checks so that I could make a list of what absolutes we still need to get.
Stretch marks: Hanging strong. I hear they usually show up in the last weeks so there's that new fact.
Sleep: I still struggle getting comfortable. But I usually get around 8 hours of sleep on average. Night bathroom trips have returned so it's always fun rolling around like a turtle to get up once I'm nuzzled in my pillow nest. Josh is a huge help by providing a hand whenever I need it.
Movement: Still the best thing. She will sometimes get in a position that her kicks are actually painful but her sweet wiggles, squirms, kicks, hiccups and the like are my favorite part of the day.
Cravings: Fruit! We cut the most delicious fresh pineapple this week and all I want are cherries, peaches, bananas, etc.
Changes from last week: Heat intolerance. I have always been very cold natured and I've noticed that I am always hot now. I know the weather has gotten drastically warmer but even in 65 degree air conditioning, I'm warm.
Best moment of the week: Last weekend Josh's sister came over for a cookout and we got to spend time with her 9 month old daughter. The best part was watching Josh hold, play, talk with her, etc. It was a glimpse of our future with our daughter and I know he is going to be an amazing father.
Miss anything: Not really anything is striking me this week.
Looking forward to: Ordering her bassinet/crib. Of course I'm incredibly excited for the baby shower in a few weeks!
Scripture for the week: He counts the stars and calls them all by name. - Psalm 147:4  It's easy to feel forgotten or alone during this busy season but when I reflect that this is the God who made every single star and knows them each by name; He absolutely still remembers me and my unborn child too. I can admit not having my mother or father during this process has been very difficult emotionally but the love from our Heavenly Father surpasses any love that exists here on earth. And that will always be more than enough.

CHEESE! - 
Look who came to take pictures this week :)

5.31.2015

[she is 27 weeks pregnant]



How far along: 27 weeks
Size: A bunch of bananas
Symptoms: The exhaustion is still there but nowhere close to how bad it got last week. This week is more indigestion (or the broccoli I poorly chose to eat last night). I'm having more backaches and trouble getting comfortable.
Prepping for baby: We ordered her car seat! We chose the Nuna Pipa based on safety, reviews, and it's just pretty snazzy in general. Plus it is SO lightweight. It's one of the lightest on the market without compromising any safety. We got to play with one a couple weeks ago and really loved it in person too. I almost got the beautiful purple (blackberry) color but when we saw how beautiful the black (night) color is in the store, we chose that instead. Sometimes black is just too classy to pass up. I'm trying to space out ordering her large items so that I have something to consume my mind rather than D-day anxiety. Within the next month we will order her crib and stroller as well.
Stretch marks: Still in the clear!
Sleep: It's getting harder and harder to get comfortable. Especially with a big gas bubble stuck in my stomach most nights. But I've been getting 6-8 hours a night and sometimes more. I still can't nap during the day like normal pregnant women apparently can but I'm happy that the intense death-like exhaustion eased up from last week.
Movement: She is still most active at night and in the morning. Of course when I succumb to the sweet cravings, she moves a lot too. Josh and her still play poke n' kick and it's about the most fun game ever.
Cravings: Sweets are still taking the lead. My glucose test is next week so I'm really trying to limit the craziness (not that I really ever did get crazy).
Changes from last week: My belly is definitely bigger (buckling shoes is comedic).
Best moment of the week: Josh and I had a weekend to ourselves which was really nice. We have been on the go the last couple months with friends, weddings, family, etc. It was nice to just laze around and have a Netflix marathon, order pizza, and enjoy the time together.
Miss anything: Energy still. I have so much on my to-do list and not enough go-juice to do it all.
Looking forward to: Baby shower at the end of this month. Getting my glucose test out of the way late next week will be nice too.
Scripture for the week: Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. - James 1:17  -- The magnitude of this gift growing within me is still definitely not lost on me. God is good all the time and all the time, He is good.

No cat sighting today (except for the hidden cat faces in my Lily Pulitzer for Target dress) and I just noticed my chalk ran on "control"... haha oh well! :)

5.24.2015

[she is 26 weeks pregnant]


How far along: 26 weeks (I cannot believe we have less than 100 days left!)
Size: Lettuce
Symptoms: Exhaustion. I have been getting so completely whipped through the day that I have to just lie down. And if I don't lie down, then I get dizzy and short of breath so my body will make me rest. I'm also waking up to leg cramps randomly. I eat a lot of bananas (on top of a pretty well balanced diet) but they are happening! Nausea and indigestion are still in the game. More pulling and stretching as she grows. I love her dearly, so all of this is completely worth her.
Prepping for baby: I have been putting things we get for her in rubbermaid containers and bringing them up to her room. Mainly clothes and swaddles so we are still waiting another month or so before we get her bigger things like the crib, car seat, etc. We went to our first labor and delivery class last week and toured the delivery unit. I was familiar with the hospital because I did my rotations there in nursing school but now Josh got familiar with the surroundings. I'm finally starting to read some baby books as well. My best friends are preparing my baby shower and they are all so excited. I am really feeling blessed to have such an incredible group of women who are as supportive and loving as they are. Love them beyond words and I can't wait for Olivia to meet them.
Stretch marks: She grew a lot this week. But still no stretch marks.
Sleep: This week sleep hasn't been so bad (knock on wood). I'm probably getting between 6-8 hours a night and I will take it! I'm probably sleeping better this week because I am so tired!
Movement: She is moving a lot this week. I still feel most her movements below my navel and most of those lower than that! Josh can feel her a lot more too. I am trying to get a video of her kicks but it's pretty hard to capture on my phone since she's dancing so low!
Cravings: Still sweets. I want sprinkle donuts constantly but have only had three this whole pregnancy!
Changes from last week: The waves of exhaustion. I have been doing a lot of stuff around the house that would be seemingly normal before pregnancy but my body is not having it now. I pace my tasks so that I don't wear completely out.
Best moment of the week: We went to our good friends' wedding this weekend and had such a good time. The class was a nice bonding experience as well. It's been such a busy week that flew by!

Josh was a groomsman and looked so handsome
Miss anything: Energy! It's so crazy feeling like I can't keep up with my old chores when I'm about to add a baby to the mix. Praying for lots of strength!
Looking forward to: All her little movements. She can open her eyes now so maybe that's why she is moving more. Even though she can't see much in there, she can perceive light and I'm sure if she's like mom and dad, she's loving the sunshine. I'm excited for the baby shower at the end of next month too! I also can't wait to start ordering her bigger stuff next month after the baby shower.
Scripture for the week: Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. - Matthew 11:28-29
If you click the pic, Sabre's tongue is hanging out ;)

5.17.2015

[she is 25 weeks pregnant]

There's a cat in my hair this week

How far along: 25 weeks
Size: Cauliflower
Symptoms: Dizziness and nausea is back. Lots of pulling and stretching too.
Prepping for baby: Her baby book delivered. We wanted the hard-to-find Emily Ley Baby Book and a local business had one in stock so we were able to snag one. The quality is amazing and it's perfect. We also registered this week at a few places. Josh had a lot of fun and bought her an outfit that he fell in love with. He picked it out himself, carried it around, and it melted my heart how much he loves this little girl already. We are waiting until next month to start working on the nursery and order her bigger items. No rush right now; we are just soaking in every moment of this time.
Stretch marks: Not yet but it wouldn't surprise me to wake up one day with them. She is growing!
Sleep: Still struggling for good rest. I wake up at 5am almost every day even if I fall asleep after midnight. And I lay there doing my bible study, Pinterest, Instagram, etc. Sometimes I fall back asleep but most times I just lay there and feel her move around.
Movement: Speaking of movement, she is most active at night until early morning. I don't know if she just knows mom is sleeping and feels like there's free reign but during the day she's mostly quiet so we are already on opposite sleep schedules! But when she is moving, you can see her doing it now.  Her movements are typically pretty low. I haven't experienced any rib kicks or the like.
Cravings: Fruit and vegetables. And creme brûlée. :)
Changes from last week: Nausea and dizziness are not the most fun. But it's part of this marvelous process so I try not to complain.
Best moment of the week: We saw our doctor this week for a routine check up. We got to see her again on the ultrasound and everything looked great. We signed up for a labor and delivery/tour class as well. It's just awesome watching everything come together. I cannot stress how in awe of The Lord I am during this time. This is the same God who created the Heavens and the earth, parted the Red Sea, died on a cross for us... It's just incredible.
Miss anything: Sleep. Ha! They say I better get used to this though...
Looking forward to: Having our first class so we can get familiar with what to do and where to be when the time comes. Don't get me wrong, I don't like sitting in any classes but I like being prepared more.
Scripture for the week: May all my thoughts be pleasing to Him, for I rejoice in the Lord. - Psalm 104:34


5.10.2015

[she is 24 weeks pregnant]




How far along: 24 weeks
Size: Cantaloupe
Symptoms: Indigestion. It's pretty common to find me by following the outrageous burp sounds.
Prepping for baby: My best friend came over and helped me clean out the potential nursery. Josh and I went to a few furniture stores and took advantage of the Mother's Day sales by ordering a glider/recliner for us to rock her in. We also played at this baby store by testing out carriers, strollers, and car seats. It was so much fun to just cut loose with Josh and be incredibly silly.

We couldn't find the test doll, so this giraffe had to do!
Stretch marks: Not any to be seen so far but my once-deep belly button is now flush with my skin.
Sleep: This week was stressful. There was a lot going on and I just didn't get the sleep I needed. I was able to take a few naps here and there but I am exhausted this week.
Movement: She's moving a lot more now during the day. Josh can feel her a lot more too but other close friends haven't been able to catch her in action. Still the best thing, ever.
Cravings: Vegetables. There's a huge part of me that wants to eat all the cookies in the world but this week, I just want green stuff.
Changes from last week: My belly button. It makes me laugh every time I see it.
Best moment of the week: For nearly 25 years, I have dreaded mother's day. I remember in Kindergarten getting in trouble because I didn't make the construction paper gift for mother's day. My mother had just died the summer before I started school. My dad had to explain the situation to my school and I remember going to the library each year when they did the mother's day crafts, picnics, etc. And even as a teenager and adult, I have always felt left out. This was the first mother's day I didn't feel left out. I could feel my sweet daughter moving around the whole day and I felt whole on what was once such a broken day for me. No tears, no sadness, no longing. Just pure joy and thanksgiving for this precious miracle. Honestly, one of the best days on this journey.
Miss anything: We took Josh's mom and sister to Ruth's Chris steakhouse on mother's day. And I missed my medium rare steak. Well done just doesn't do it for me at all... but still worth the sacrifice!
Looking forward to: Our appointment this week - We get to take a peek at her! And of course, every little movement she makes.
Scripture for the week: For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. - James 1:3
No cat today! 

5.03.2015

[she is 23 weeks pregnant]

Messy hair, don't care ;)

How far along: 23 weeks
Size: Papaya
Symptoms: More pulling and tugging. Sitting for too long hurts my hips when I stand. Standing too long hurts my back when I sit. I got my first mid-sleep leg cramp. All pretty normal things. :)
Prepping for baby: My office is now officially downstairs. We are signed up for a baby marathon class next month. Every day I sing two songs for her hoping that if she gets accustomed to the melodies in the womb, that it can bring some comfort to her when she's in this big scary world.
Stretch marks: With all this growth this week, I'm surprised that I still don't!
Sleep: Still mostly sleeping through the night. The pregnancy nightmares are pretty rough though. Praying for those to go away.
Movement: The other night we were laying in bed and she hadn't moved in a while (which is totally normal and I knew she was asleep). Josh stretched his hand over her and said, "I love you, my little girl" and she totally kicked him and he was able to feel it. We both were really touched and excited about it. I love when she wiggles around. It's still the best thing ever.
Cravings: Still sweets. I genuinely have a daily limit and fight to stick to it. Josh brought home a huge tray of cupcakes and I surprisingly only ate 3 of them.
Changes from last week: Definitely more belly growth. My weight gain is still on target so it's all in the belly/chest which brings all the new aches and pains.
Best moment of the week: We got invited to our friends' crawfish boil to celebrate the Kentucky Derby. It was really nice to be around a bunch of people who walk in the same spirit. I got to fill up my friendship tank with one of my very best friends and the boys all decided to buy the big boxing match so we got to spend a LOT of time just hanging out since the fight didn't end until 1am! Practically every couple had a bunch of little ones running around so it was fun to just see all these small kids having fun and dreaming of when our little girl can run with them too one day.
Miss anything: Energy. However, I'm having so much fun feeling her move around that I don't consume myself in negative thoughts.
Looking forward to: Same as last week -- Every little kick and nudge. My heart is so full. I just want to take it all in, thankful for every moment.
Scripture for the week: In Him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in His holy name. - Psalm 33:21




 
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